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highheelsandpalinka: Read More Don’t be silly, of course you deserve my friendship. I...

Wed, 19 Jun 2013 04:04:15 -0400

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Don’t be silly, of course you deserve my friendship. I don’t think it would’ve lasted this long if you didn’t. I know I’m good for things, I’m just… stupid.

-He’s hardly managing anything beyond mumbling, and he really wishes he could hug her tighter than he is right now.-

I’ll try.

… Sorry.

-As quiet as his voice is, it seems to crack slightly before trailing off. He rests his head atop hers and his shoulders slouch in defeat as the thing he dreaded starts to happen. At least he manages to keep it quiet for now and hey, she won’t be able to see any tears as long as they’re hugging.-

Wed, 19 Jun 2013 02:42:59 -0400

highheelsandpalinka: Read More If you say so. … I guess that’s good. I mean, I gotta...

Wed, 19 Jun 2013 02:40:00 -0400

highheelsandpalinka:

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If you say so.

… I guess that’s good. I mean, I gotta be good for something right. I would hope I am, anyways. But you should know that by now… if you were any kind of burden, I wouldn’t stick around. I don’t put myself through that shit. I stay around because you’re worth it and I can handle you, as you put it. But that doesn’t stop it from being hard to believe. I’ve had other people tell me that that are now gone, either from my life or missing entirely. It’s not your fault, it’s past shit. Makes doubts happen and such. I’m used to people leaving or not needing me anymore.

-There’s extreme hesitation in what follows, but he slowly walks closer to her. He notices the breath she took and being very close to doing the same thing, tries to prepare himself for whatever might happen in the coming seconds.-

Don’t take this the wrong way, okay.

-He pulls her into a hug, being careful and mindful of her injuries. He softens his voice and hides his face in her hair in exhaustion.-

I love you. And I’m going to do everything I can to make sure I never have to leave you.

highheelsandpalinka: sirgilbo: Read More Read More I thought it’d be harmless, just a...

Wed, 19 Jun 2013 01:37:00 -0400

highheelsandpalinka:

sirgilbo:

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I thought it’d be harmless, just a little kiss on the cheek, I mean you’ve kissed me on the cheek before. I didn’t know I was going to get that reaction, and I know you didn’t mean to make me uncomfortable. I just… I wasn’t expecting you to kiss me back because it was supposed to be a silly good luck kiss, and that’s it.

It’s fine. You kinda forget shit like that when that kind of stuff happens. If Gil came back I’d drop everything and run to him without bothering to think about anything or anyone else. I get it.

Liz, I’ve been forgotten and replaced plenty of times already, sometimes by guys with faces very similar to mine. I know he’s not literally a “better me” but hell this is how it started every other time, how can I not fear it happening again? Especially now that I’m not here like I used to be?

How did any of that suggest you were a burden to me? You’ve never been a burden and I don’t ever want you to replace me, that’s what I’m scared of! -He was doing his best not to yell, for he feared any yelling would be translated as anger towards her and that’s not what he wanted.-

-And when he notices her wiping tears from her cheeks, he frowned. But the words that followed only made him fall silent and stare at her, expression somewhere between hurt and disbelief.-

… So it wouldn’t actually matter if I ever did leave.

TRUTH SERUM - MY MUSE HAS TO ANSWER ANY AND ALL QUESTION REGARDLESS OF WHAT IT IS.

Wed, 19 Jun 2013 00:56:18 -0400

illusionwanderer: A bird’s eye view of St. Bartholomä, Germany...

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 19:27:48 -0400

illusionwanderer:

A bird’s eye view of St. Bartholomä, Germany (by B℮n)

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Tue, 18 Jun 2013 14:47:25 -0400

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majortvjunkie: it’s ok if you hate me as long as I hated you first

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 14:45:31 -0400

majortvjunkie:

it’s ok if you hate me as long as I hated you first

ktaina109: Gilbert♥Beilschmidt - Prussia

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 14:44:40 -0400

ktaina109:

Gilbert♥Beilschmidt - Prussia

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Tue, 18 Jun 2013 14:39:40 -0400

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ktaina109: Gilbert♥Beilschmidt - Prussia

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 13:48:00 -0400

ktaina109:

Gilbert♥Beilschmidt - Prussia

gerheart: ID: 梅本(うめブック)

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 13:47:42 -0400

gerheart:

ID: 梅本(うめブック)

deutschland-germany: ohne-struktur: unterwegs in der...

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 13:45:42 -0400

deutschland-germany:

ohne-struktur:

unterwegs in der Hafencity…

Hamburg, Germany

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 03:49:24 -0400

highheelsandpalinka: I’m the third one, right? The one that keeps slipping right through your...

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 03:36:13 -0400

highheelsandpalinka:

I’m the third one, right? The one that keeps slipping right through your grasp.
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But he will be more important once you guys get together again. That kind of comes with being lovers, you’re the most important person to the other.

I would pick the asshole that came back! Just like we all know I will if Gil ever shows his damn face again. I would never expect you to wait around for me because I still don’t know my own feelings.

I couldn’t kiss you because I still love Gil. That time I kissed you on the cheek for good luck? I was scared, especially after you nearly kissed me on the lips. It felt wrong. I can’t be with someone else when my stupid love for another person is still there so it’s not like I’m against you being with someone. Like you said, things didn’t change when you were with Feliks.

We’re probably meant to be nothing but close friends but just like you said, for the longest time if was you and me against the world. You don’t have to be in a romantic relationship to have that! It’d likely never be anything more than it is now but that doesn’t stop me from liking you a lot and you being the only person I have left. It’s selfish, all of it, because I’m a selfish person. But it’s going to fucking hurt for a while to see you smooching and being cute with someone that looks just like me. It’s going to hurt to see my best friend being romance-y and lovey with… a better me. And now I’m never going to be able to be cuddly or what the fuck ever with you anymore, now that you have him to do that with. And you’ll have him to talk to about whatever’s bothering you and eventually I’m not… I won’t have any reason to… anything. He’ll be here more than me. He’ll take my place in no time.

highheelsandpalinka: sirgilbo: … Of course I mean as friends. I learned a while ago that I’m...

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 02:46:58 -0400

highheelsandpalinka:

sirgilbo:

… Of course I mean as friends. I learned a while ago that I’m clearly not fit for any other kind of relationship.

Feliks didn’t have my face, either.

Woah, woah, woah. That isn’t true! There are people out there who would love to be your significant other. I mean, don’t give up. You know I had feelings for you, that’s got to count something?

I am sure I can tell you apart. Are you worried it might get weird?

First one I had, I fucked up. Second one I had, the guy disappeared without a damn word. Whatever chance I had with a third is now gone, so. I can’t say I care anymore.

… Liz. Think about it for a second. Imagine if this were the other way around. Imagine there’s you in my life, and then this other… you. Another Hungary. You and I are friends, but then me and this other Hungary are way closer. We’re lovers. And because of that she is technically more important to me than you. One day she leaves without a word, and I’m heartbroken. A freakin’ year or so passes and during that time, you’re always there for me, or try to be. You help me get over it and I accept that she’s gone and not coming back. I move on from her. You and I meanwhile get super close. Lots of things happen to you and and I’m suddenly the only person you have left. Your lover has left you like mine left me. We admit to having feelings for each other, presently or in the past. But there are feelings. One day I suddenly hook up with some other chick, or dude. You have to act like you’re okay with it, which for the most part you are. But I now have someone that’s more important to me than you, like before. But then we suddenly break up, and you’re there for me again. A few weeks later that other Hungary that ditched me forever ago suddenly shows up and suddenly everything that happened over that year doesn’t really matter. However close we got, whatever, I have my Hungary back now. Sure you’re still ‘best friend Hungary,’ but this one that broke my heart is back now and now they’re the most important Hungary again. I’m gonna go back to dating them and kissing them and making love. Don’t know if you’re going back to that with him but I assume you will be. Anyway, the only person you have now has someone else to love romantically. You’re 2nd place again. And the best part is they have your name, your face, and even though they really hurt me and ditched me for a year and you’re the Hungary that was there for me the entire time, they’re the Hungary that gets to be first. With little to no questions asked, and so soon after my last break up! And now you’re once again the only one that’s alone.

It’s incredibly selfish but yeah, it’ll probably get weird knowing there’s a Prussia more important than me and knowing that you’ll likely be fucking someone whose face is nearly identical to mine.

highheelsandpalinka: But we are still going to be close….unless….. You are meaning as friends,...

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 02:16:00 -0400

highheelsandpalinka:

But we are still going to be close….unless…..

You are meaning as friends, igen? Like just friends.

Please tell me that is it because I am sure we are still going to be ever so close. Nothing changed when I dated Feliks…..

… Of course I mean as friends. I learned a while ago that I’m clearly not fit for any other kind of relationship.

Feliks didn’t have my face, either.

highheelsandpalinka: sirgilbo: It’s just sudden, that’s all. Sudden? He’s been gone for a better...

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 02:04:23 -0400

highheelsandpalinka:

sirgilbo:

It’s just sudden, that’s all.

Sudden?

He’s been gone for a better part of year, how is it sudden?

If you don’t want to talk that’s fine…I will be around to listen when you are ready. I highly doubt you are….okay with this.

… That’s exactly why it’s sudden. I don’t know. He was gone for so long and you and I got all close and suddenly he just shows up again, and now… I don’t know. Whatever you decide to do.

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Tue, 18 Jun 2013 01:59:21 -0400

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